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<blockquote>I hated the frustration involved with being in that band. I was talking to [MTV VJ] Kennedy after I left, and she's like, "Well, you know a lot of people are saying good things about your demo." And I'm like, "Yeah, like who?" "Trent." Trent was always supportive. I think it was being caught in the machine of Nine Inch Nails that broke me down.
It wasn't Trent, it wasn't [[JohnMalm, Jr.|John]]. It was me saying, "I don't know if I can be a hired gun anymore." I wanted to be creative, and Trent extended his hand and said, "Come on." I'd be with him and we'd try to write. I'd look into his eyes and it was like, "I don't know where you are going, I don't know what I want." He knew it, I knew it and we still said that we gotta try harder, but it wasn't gonna happen. I had my way of being creative on my own and I did it with ''Short Bus''. And he has a way all of his own.
It was a frustrating thing for me. I didn't know what I was mad at. I didn't know why it was hard for me to be in that band. I realized that it couldn't go on. I couldn't go on the road and be the guitar player that couldn't write what he plays. It was frustrating because I had to come to that realization. Even though Trent really did try to work it out with me, I couldn't even face him anymore. It was one of the most difficult times in my life.</blockquote>