Kinda I Want To

Album:Pretty Hate Machine

Length:4:33

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Versions:Kinda I Want To
Kinda I Want To (Purest Feeling)
Kinda I Want To (Demo)

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Kinda I Want To is the sixth track on the 1989 release Pretty Hate Machine, and has ties to lust, though it's unclear exactly what the speaker wants to do or whom they want to do it with. Notably hard to write, Trent Reznor has always been very unsatisified with the song and thinks it's by far the worst song he's ever done. He has also stated it's the one song he will not play live anymore, though as with anything, this is subject to change.

Song Credits

• Production: Trent Reznor, John Fryer
• Engineering: John Fryer, Keith LeBlanc, Kennan Keating, Ken Quartarone
• Mix: John Fryer, Trent Reznor, Keith LeBlanc

Appearances

Halos

• Pretty Hate Machine

Other

• Purest Feeling (Demo)
• Purest Feeling II (Demo)

Versions

Kinda I Want To

Beginning with what sounds like garbled cries, the sixth track on Pretty Hate Machine is perhaps the most solely beat driven song on the track, lacking a clear melody and utilizing a lot of samples and loops (similar to Reznor's most recent work, Year Zero). The distorted cries at the end segue directly into Sin.

Kinda I Want To (Purest Feeling Version)

With a completely different arrangement, a solid synthetic melody, less distorted audio samples and a much more upbeat feel to it, the Purest Feeling version of Kinda I Want To resembles early 80's house music more than it's "breakbeat"-ish counterpart from Pretty Hate Machine. The song's arrangement is completely different in structure though the lyrics are the same with an additional bridge in the middle where Reznor repeats the line "Why does it have to be this way?" over and over while harmonizing with himself. The ending also features a rapidly strumming spanish guitar sound similar to that used in The Becoming off of The Downward Spiral, before the entire song fades into soft synths.

Kinda I Want To (Demo)

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Live

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Lyrics

    I can’t shake this feeling from my head
    There’s a devil sleeping in my bed
    He’s watching you from across the way
    I cannot make this feeling go away
    
    I know it’s not the right thing
    And I know it’s not the good thing
    But kinda I want to
    
    I’m not sure of what I should do
    When everything I’m thinking of is you
    All of my excuses turn to lies
    Maybe God will cover up His eyes
    
    I know it’s not the right thing
    And I know it’s not the good thing
    But kinda I want to
    Kinda I want to
    
    Maybe just for tonight
    We can pretend it’s alright
    What’s the price I pay
    I don’t care what they say
    I want to
    I want to (I’ll take my chance tonight)