The Becoming
The Becoming (Still)
Performance 2007
"The Becoming" is made from many loops of industrial sounds, showcasing the hard sound from The Downward Spiral. The main body of the song is in a 13/8 time signature before switching to a 6/8 time signature at the breakdown. It then goes back to 13/8 before ending in 6/8, leading into "I Do Not Want This."
A more acoustic version (with Trent Reznor on piano, Danny Lohner on guitar, Jerome Dillon on drums, with drum machine and samples) can be found on Still, with an accompanying video on www.nin.com (YouTube upload).
Contents
Meaning
The lyrics describe a man fighting against himself, trying to avoid his "becoming," transforming him into a machine without human characteristics and feelings.
This is a rare example of Reznor directly referencing a name ("Annie") in his lyrics. Usually, he uses ambiguous pronouns. This expresses the need for attachment, the need to interact intimately with another human despite the narrator's extreme attempts to detach himself from the world.
The song begins with industrial noises such as those from a drum machine and what appears to be distorted screams. At the 3-minute mark it mellows into swooshy sounds with ahhing from more emotive voices. There is a final outburst of noise and screaming before fading out with the ahhs again. This song structure is indicative of the struggle between the narrator and the noise/machine.
Song Credits
- Production: Flood and Trent Reznor
- Mixing Engineer: Alan Moulder
- Ring Mod Guitar: Adrian Belew
- ARP2600: Flood
Appearances
Halos
- The Downward Spiral (1994)
- And All That Could Have Been (Deluxe Edition CD; 2002)
- Still
Versions
The Becoming
This is the original album version.
The Becoming (Still)
This version appears on the Still CD, which was Disc 2 of the Deluxe Edition CD of And All That Could Have Been and is currently available through NIN.com.
Song Credits
- Performance: Trent Reznor, Jerome Dillon
- Mix engineering: Alan Moulder
- Engineering: Alan Moulder
- Second Engineering: Leo Herrera
- Programming: Keith Hillebrandt
Lyrics
I..beat my machine
Itâs a part of me
Itâs inside of me
Iâm...stuck in this dream
Itâs changing me
I am becoming
The me that you know
He had some second thoughts
Heâs covered with scabs
He is broken and sore
The me that you know
He doesnât come around much
That part of me
Isnât here anymore
All...pain disappears
Itâs the nature of
Of my circuitry
Drowns...out all I hear
No escape from this
My new consciousness
The me that you know
He used to have feelings
But the blood has stopped pumping
And heâs left to decay
The me that you know
Is now made up of wires
And even when Iâm right with you
Iâm so far away
I can try to get away
But Iâve strapped myself in
I can try to scratch away
The sound in my ears
I can see it killing away
All of my bad parts
I donât want to listen
But itâs all too clear
Hiding
Backwards inside of me
I feel
So unafraid
Annie
Hold a little tighter
I might
Just slip away
It wonât give up
It wants me dead
Goddamn this noise inside my head